I'm LOST

I'm LOST

Have you ever had this feeling
the feeling you want something
and you don't want it to happen
at the same time?
the feeling that your are lost in the middle of your thoughts
lost in the middle of your dreams?
lost in the middle of all the things you want to do??
the feeling you want something so much
and waiting for it to happen
and in the same time you keep telling yourself
that it will not happen?
as if you don't want to give yourself the chance
just the chance to have that little dream
the dream that it might really happens??!
the feeling that you want to stop thinking
just stop thinking for a moment
not having anything to think of?
as if your mind is so clear
like the sky after raining
but you can't do it
your mind always has something to think about
as if it is a rough ocean
an ocean without any shores!
and then you start to think
how can i stop thinking!
you are thinking about not thinking!!!!
then you find yourself smiling
and telling yourself that you are crazy
then your smile begins to fade
and sadness comes to set next to you
as a loyal friend
but you think to yourself
there isn't anything worth crying for
perhaps death deserves
the death of the pepole you love
but there isn't anything else deserves crying for
so you look to the sky
keep wishing to find some hope
a little hope to give you strength
strength to keep going on with your life
strength to wake up in the morning
wake up with that hope
hope that you can make a change
a big change in your life
and stop thinking in that day for only one moment
that is all i need
at least for now :D

salam
8-10-2008